early resolution

I'm fat.  Let me rephrase, before I get a boatload of evil stares - I FEEL fat.  I know many of you will write me saying, "Stop it!  You look fine!  "You're beautiful."  "You're not as fat as me."  "Don't worry, it's all that turkey."  "Don't be so vain!"  "How can you write about this?"

Say all you want Void, but for me when the jeans which were loose two months ago can no longer be zipped, something's up.  This is not a problem I've encountered before.  Call me hyper, psycho, or crazy, but when the only pair of pants that fit comfortably are the black, stretchy kind you see people wearing to the gym - I start to freak out.  When I freak out, I'm frustrated, angry and sad.  When I'm sad the people around me are sad.  So, in an effort to stop this - whatever it is - from spiraling to a dead halt at The Point of No Return, I'm starting my New Year's Resolution early.  I thought I could "up the ante" and tell you, the Void, my plan so as not to be bested by my own personal failure to keep up with something.  In other words, I need you to hold me accountable!! (If, of course, there's anyone out there who still reads this silly little blog, that is.)

So here's the plan:

Starting today, for twenty-five days, I'm putting myself on the road to a Happier, Healthier, and Not heftier Me. This plan has 3 Ultimate Goals: 1) Be happier.  2) Be healthier.  3) Be non-hefty.

How will I do that you ask?  I'll tell you.  No I'm not going to read a self-help book.  I'm not going to get a shrink.  I'm not going to buy a membership to an expensive gym.  I'm going to do this:

1.  Spend 15 minutes a day in the Bible and prayer. 
(Sadly, I don't do this - I wish I did - What a perfect time to start!)

2.  Drink 8 glasses of water daily. 
(Some of you are wondering why this is a goal - if you know me at all, you know I'd drink coffee all day if I could.  Doctor friends, I'm sorry you know the truth about me now.)

3.  Exercise daily. 
(I hate sweating.  This one will be hard...but I figure if I combine some of the things I like to do with the things I hate doing, I can do it!)

4.  Make healthy choices when it comes to food. 
(OK, that's a given, but I'm writing it down for solidarity's sake.)

5.  Do something creative daily.
(I'm leaving this one open ended - one never knows where the imagination will travel.)

I will track my progress with a daily checklist, weekly weigh-ins, and even blogs...

One final note, I know it's going to be rough out there.  Christmas is around the corner - all the experts will tell me this is THE absolute worst time to start a plan like this - but I'm determined to prove them all wrong.  You can help me, Void.  Be my support group!

Thank-you and ttfn, I'm going to get started.